Busy, Busy, Busy.

With me being busy with two jobs and all is that real reason this relationship (not talking about a boy, talking about all types of relationships) is crashing down. I don't even have time for myself let alone another person or my bestfriendships. If I'm not at one job, I'm at the other. If I am not at work I'm at home catching up on sleep. I really am sleep deprived and I hate it. I guess I can learn to make time but its just not gonna happen right now. People always say that all you have is time in this world...Well I would love to beg to differ right now. I don't know. I'll figure it out when I can.

Young Love-

"If I put my hand out,
would you put yours in mine?
All of our answers,
questions in time.
Don't let your fears tear us apart.

i want to get closer to you.
I'm on the outside looking in.
Tell me our love is real.
You know that I will understand.
i want to get closer to you.
(Closer to you.)
i want to get closer to you.
(Closer to you.)

This is bigger, bigger than you or me.
In those grains of sand waiting by the sea
We'll let the current wash us away."

Call my bluff?

No, I don't believe in love. I used to. It used to be what I lived for. I always thought that loved made the world go round. But as I keep getting older and getting more and more fucked over I realized that love is just a fad and bullshit. Its something that gets you all warm inside just to break your heart later on.

Me..I am much more happier not being in love. Love is just to stressful.
I rather just be happy with just being with someone for who they are and what they
bring to the table. Love is pain and I'm def good with not feeling it. =]

But one day when I am more mature and older maybe I could fall in love
and it not fuck me over like my last two boyfriends did.

So for now I am pretty content with where I am in this whole love thing.

=]

Sharp Grass && Sweet Tea-

Southern gong && Northern Delight.

You made a mark on me!

Actually-

i'm pretty lost!

Whoa! Shut it down!

I am normally a happy go lucky girl. I'm full of life and always smiling.
I usually, most of the time stay pretty positive. I can make anyone laugh
at any giving moment.

There for about a good year I wasn't that way at all. I was always angry.
I was always cussing someone out or dropping people from my life and shutting
everyone out. I didn't care about anyone or anything. I left college. I quit my job. Got
fired from others because I was a complete bitch to anyone and everyone.
I drank and I did alot of pills. My parents and I didn't have a good relationship.
Basically, I hated my mom and I hated being home. I tried to stay away from home
as much as I could.

Thank GOD I am no longer like that. No one wants to be around that type of person.
I know I wouldn't be. To be honest, I hated myself at times. But I am Thankful that things
aren't like that anymore. I am much happier with life. I love my parents. I'm still not at home
much but now I miss being there. =] I don't really drink anymore. I don't do any type of
drugs anymore. I've grown up in the last few months.

Life is pretty gnarlyy right now. Not to mention I have the best people in my life. Especially
Jimmy.
Hollie.
Derek.
Nichole && Wes.
Ashley Sumner.
Taylor.
My parents && grandparents.
Kaylen.
Tyler.
Kayla.
Kylla
and plenty of others.

I am happy at were I am in life. =]

Goodbye 2008.

I'm glad 2008 is over.
It happened to be the worst year of my entire life.
I went through way way way to much this year
with shit dealing with Mitch and shit with my parents.
I was miserable alot of the times and was never happy.
But its all in the past now.

...

Hello 2009!

I'm gonna make this the best year ever.
I'm gonna live life to the fullest and not look back.
I swear it!!!!

No one is bringing me down this year.